January 2nd

At the top of my resolution chart I am going to write in big bold letters "Go Easy On Yourself, Life Happens", because who knew that two days into the New Year and I would have already failed miserably.

Last night I decided that I was very happy with my workout schedule, I try to go on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday. On Wednesday I give myself a break because I am usually exhausted from cleaning the house on Monday and all the running I do on Tuesday. But if I didn't go work out this morning then I wouldn't get my three times in this week, and I would be breaking my resolutions already.

But one major lesson I learned from The Happiness Project was to "Be Jamie" and I need my Wednesday to stay just the way they are.

Which turned out to be a good thing because I didn't sleep for nothing last night. For some reason I had major anxiety about returning to our normal schedule today. The break has been so peaceful, relaxing, and stress free.

My alarm went off at seven, which should have given me enough time to wake myself and Rob up, wake the kids up, and then make our way down to read scriptures. Except I turned the alarm off and rolled over and went back to sleep until almost eight when I hurried to wake up my still sleeping kids to get ready for school so we didn't miss the bus at 8:30.

Resolution Broken: Reading Scriptures together at least 5 times a week.

I also discovered there was not enough milk for cereal and not enough eggs either. So I quickly  took orders and ran through the McDonald's drive through while everyone was getting dressed.

Resolution Broken: Not eating out unless planned.

But as I stood in the driveway watching my kids get on the bus I realized something, our morning was a success. There was no one screaming to hurry and get ready we were late and going to miss the bus. When my kids left for school they were happy, they were not upset and did not feel rushed.

While I broke two (maybe three) resolutions I realized I had kept the most important one to Be The Good.

I was calm, I did what needed to be done, and I knew my kids felt loved as they left for school.

Too often I focus on the negative, the areas where I fell short, but cutting myself some slack and focusing on the positive is good. After all lesson number two I need to learn is "Don't let perfect be the enemy of good".