The Lot

The last two weeks have been rough, honestly life was pretty stressful and full of many ups and downs as we tried to nail down a lot to build our future home on, but the last two weeks can be chalked up as the worst so far in this entire process.

I was completely useless for most of the last two weeks, I tried to go about my normal day and accomplish items on my "to do" list, but it was really hard and my motivation was gone. I would wait most of the day for people to return my calls, hopefully with good news, but usually they were calling with more hoops we would have to jump through to make it happen.

There were moments when I thought we would loose the lot, and a bunch of money we have already invested, and in order to deal with the stress my body and mind seemed to shut down and only do what was necessary.

Part of me is grateful when I deal with stress this way because the alternative ulcer flareup is very painful, but the guilt of my behavior is terrible and I can't help but feel like maybe if I was a little better I would be able to deal with the stress and still be at the top of my game.

In the end it took a week longer than our contract gave us, but we finally signed the papers on Friday and we have a lot to start building on.

I am so grateful to have this part of the process behind us, I can't wait to see the house start to go up, but I know that there will still be many challenges ahead. I only pray I can deal with them a little better than I did these last two weeks.

It is summer break after all and I would love to enjoy it!!

All Is Well

Last night was rough, I had hoped for a different outcome, and was actually fairly certain it would be different. But we all have our agency and our freedom to vote how we choose. And while that is a tough pill to swallow, I am so very thankful to live in a country founded on these principles.

I woke up around 3am and checked my phone hoping things had changed, no luck. I laid there wide awake wondering how this would affect the dreams we had for our family, and what the future had in store for us.

It was then that the answer came, the reason for the peaceful feeling I had all day (that made me certain there would be a different outcome), the Lord is always in charge, and as long as we are doing what we are supposed to he will bless us.

That doesn't mean things will be easy, they never are, but he will be there for us and the blessings will be there.

President Monson said "The future is as bright as your faith".

I can't change what happens to our country now, I can only make the best of it.
I can sit and sulk or I can go to work.

I resolved this morning to focus on my family, to teach my children correct moral principles, teach them to rise above the challenges we are given, and teach them to be kind, tolerant, and good citizens.

After all the greatest work I can do is within the walls of my own home.

And I will not fail, because I have the Lord on my side.

A few people have shared this quote from Elder Holland, and it is so true.

"The future of this world has long been declared; the final outcome between good and evil is already known. There is absolutely no question as to who wins because the victory has already been posted on the scoreboard. The only really strange thing in all of this is that we are still down here on the field trying to decide which team's jersey we want to wear!"

So chin up everyone, All Is Well!!!